Some people on here I've latched onto for dear life.
Not because I want to ride anyone's coat tails - because that's not my style, but because I see something in them in some way that draws me to them.
It's no different with today's guest blogger. I've latched onto I Will Get Up Again and Again for my own personal reasons. Mostly because I want to see her continue to get up. I want her darkness to fade and for the sunshine to fall gently on her face as she smiles and says out loud...
"It's a good day!"
I have been reading I Will Get Up Again and Again for several months and I like to think I'm one of her biggest cheerleaders. Even if I don't always outwardly express it.
Her story is one of consistently choosing to get up every single day. Even when it's like living in the dark.
I give you I Will Get Up Again and Again:
I made an appointment with a psychiatrist that specializes in gastric bypass, whom I had seen when I was in the hospital, whom had done an evaluation on me prior to my WLS, and whom even though I didn’t like...I did trust his knowledge was extensive. It was a 6 month wait to see him. I was desperate when I scheduled that appointment. The appointment came and went. He confirmed that I was seeing one of the best psychiatrists and that I needed to continue my treatment with her. He gave me his recommendations and sent them to Dr. KSB. Telling me to follow-up with her in a week or two. He also, added several dx to my permanent chart. That appointment was a year ago. None of his recommendations were options at the time. Dr. KSB has left the one recommendation as a last case scenario. Agreeing that the only way she would suggest it being an option, would be if there was an attempt to end my life. It would be, as he said...”LAST CASE SCENARIO”.
And I will add I've had a bad week of suicidal ideation. Self harm crap has been sky high. My BFF informed me I'm to negative and need to try to increase positive in my life. And while I know she is right, when every ounce of my energy is taken by going to work....there is nothing left. Excuse? Sure as hell is. Bit it is where I'm at. I have went as far as have plan in place and need to be talked down off the ledge by one of my Orlando Moms. She gets this place. I know she does. And somehow that makes it that much harder.
Thank you, my sweet G for sharing your story. You know I just want to hug you through the computer every single day.
Please go on over and visit G on Facebook at:
I Will Get Up Again and Again
And her blog page at:
I Will Get Up Again and Again
Keep getting up girlfriend!
Thank you all for continuing through this series.
If you or anyone you know is struggling with depression or suicidal thoughts, please contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline.
No matter what problems you are struggling with, hurting yourself isn't the answer. Call 1-800-273-TALK (8255) to talk to a counselor at a Lifeline crisis center near you.
Someone loves you and someone WILL miss you. I promise!
Never, ever give up.
Lots of love,