I know, I know - no one can make you anything - but it doesn't always feel that way, does it?
I think this happens to all of us from time to time. Either we're beating ourselves up, or someone else is beating us up to make us feel as though we are less - not good enough.
Sometimes it's hard to get beyond the expectations of others, isn't it? You want people to be proud of you, to see your shine.
I used to struggle with that, and sometimes I still do, even though I've come to know who I am, and what I will and will not accept.
There was a time when I was younger and not in such a great situation. I was regularly beaten down, verbally, mentally, emotionally - whatever. I'm a pretty tough cookie - but I found myself in a situation where I was made to feel less.
Eventually, I sought out mental help.
It finally made sense. So much sense that when it came at me again, I recognized it. I was able to feel in control of myself and address it calmly by saying, "just because you're feeling badly about yourself, don't try to drag me down with you." This comment was met with a snicker. He knew. It was the beginning of the end of that journey for me, and an opening to a new start.
I was able to pick myself back up and go on, knowing that I AM worthy. I AM good. I AM special and important. Sometimes we forget that. Sometimes we get caught up into a bad situation and we lose ourselves.
It wasn't easy to get back to me. That situation is long behind me now. I often question myself as to how a reasonably intelligent, strong willed, strong minded woman got there to begin with.
It's the reason why I will no longer accept another person in my life trying to push me lower to raise them self up. No thanks. Not playing, but you have fun with that. When I see it coming, I cut and run.
If you're reading, and this all sounds all too familiar - remember who you are. Remember that you are good. You are worthy and you are most definitely NOT LESS!
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