Tuesday, March 26, 2013
I'm not sure this is quality entertainment for the day...
Sorry - this is going to be a piss, moan, bitch and complain kinda blogging day!
I know it's Mental Health March, but my mental health is pissy today. (sorry folks)
Soooo, I haven't said as much here in my blog space as on my Facebook page, because I've got no place to blog about health and fitness.
Over the past year, I've been working really hard to change my life in many ways. I've changed my diet and I'm working really hard to lose weight and get healthy. I've been doing great, mostly. I've lost about 30-35 lbs collectively and I am stronger. Now, I got a giant kick in the ass, physically.
I've been really excited that I've felt good. Mentally, I'm in a REALLY good place. Physically I was on the right road. I kick box 3 times a week (well, I try) and I do the elliptical machine every day that I'm not kick boxing. I was feeling like I used to feel & working toward a slimmer, toner me.
...and THEN - relapse.
Not total and complete relapse, but relapse enough that once I get in a good work out groove, my body promptly reminds me - Biotch - you have a compromised immune system. You have Lupus. To the couch with you!
I'm so mad! The first time I started kick boxing - I started feeling good. Stronger & then BOOM - flu. Not just for a little while, for 3 weeks & yes, I did attempt to continue kick boxing with the tail end of the flu.
I recovered. I was going for a good few weeks - getting through the entire class. Working it hard. Punching and kicking the crap out of the heavy bag (I had to throw that in because it feels really good) and BAM - respiratory infection - totally and completely run down.
Yeah, I know I've got this little life long affliction and I should really stop bitching because others with Lupus are so much worse off than me, but ya know what - this is MY pity party so I'm going to complain!
I'm not ready to just lie down and be one with the couch on a regular basis. I did that stint for almost 4 years. I don't wanna play! I want to kick box and get strong and healthy and live life! WTH?
OK, I'm done.
Now, I'm prepping to go on the elliptical. I plan to make it the entire 20 minutes and I really hope to kick things again next week. Because kicking stuff that doesn't care or kick back, is kind of a great way to get out frustration AND get healthy / stronger.
In the meantime... I'm having a this sucks party!
Hey - LUPUS - you're number 1... and NO that's not my pointer finger sticking up!
Thank you for reading my rant.
Wish the rest of you a fab day!